[ and what's another death on the tally? though, she'd been there too. which most likely means... ]
How about you?
[ a learned indifference to ones own experiences doesn't mean the same blanket should be placed over everybody's. he might not have thought to ask without the prompt, but he really does want to know. ]
[ the fact that he's been through worse in the last so many months doesn't make it more likely that he's fine, in her view, but she's willing to take his word for it. ]
glad to hear it
[ she hasn't had all that many deaths on the tally thus far. this was her first — but more than the death, the emotional confusion of the fake life weighs on her. ]
[ once upon a time they were barely allies, but things have changed in the time between. and he's done enough harm lately to wish to put a little something better back in the world. ]
I've always got enough meditative calm to go around if you ever need help with a clear head.
[ unfortunately, the sharing of it opens that two way door. and he can imagine there are things she'd rather not feed back. but the offer's on the table - now, or later, or never. ]
[ the offer comes as a surprise, although she thinks perhaps it shouldn't. things have changed, keep changing. ]
maybe i should try meditation
[ she's already doing yoga and going for runs; as close as katelin philips, civilian, gets to keeping in combat-ready shape. she never expected to have to maintain the cover for this long. ]
but i may come back to you on that one if you're sure
[ she manages fine most of the time, but most of the time isn't always and she's been feeling more and more restless more and more often. she's never been good at keeping her head down. pretending to be a civilian for this long, even if there are exceptions, isn't in her nature, for all that the lies come easily.
this isn't where she expected this conversation to go, where she expected her mind to go, but that makes it no less true or relevant. ]
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how are you holding up after all that?
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[ and what's another death on the tally? though, she'd been there too. which most likely means... ]
How about you?
[ a learned indifference to ones own experiences doesn't mean the same blanket should be placed over everybody's. he might not have thought to ask without the prompt, but he really does want to know. ]
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glad to hear it
[ she hasn't had all that many deaths on the tally thus far. this was her first — but more than the death, the emotional confusion of the fake life weighs on her. ]
i will be [ fine, that is ]
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[ once upon a time they were barely allies, but things have changed in the time between. and he's done enough harm lately to wish to put a little something better back in the world. ]
I've always got enough meditative calm to go around if you ever need help with a clear head.
[ unfortunately, the sharing of it opens that two way door. and he can imagine there are things she'd rather not feed back. but the offer's on the table - now, or later, or never. ]
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maybe i should try meditation
[ she's already doing yoga and going for runs; as close as katelin philips, civilian, gets to keeping in combat-ready shape. she never expected to have to maintain the cover for this long. ]
but i may come back to you on that one
if you're sure
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Otherwise, if you need a teacher.
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[ she manages fine most of the time, but most of the time isn't always and she's been feeling more and more restless more and more often. she's never been good at keeping her head down. pretending to be a civilian for this long, even if there are exceptions, isn't in her nature, for all that the lies come easily.
this isn't where she expected this conversation to go, where she expected her mind to go, but that makes it no less true or relevant. ]
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how's tomorrow evening?
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Choose a place you'll be comfortable. It'll take easier that way.
[ not that you can't achieve a calm anywhere, but better somewhere she can go to replicate the feeling alone. ]
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would one of the parks work?
[ it's getting colder and they're public spaces, but she likes them and they're more neutral than the apartment at the moment. ]
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thank you
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