[ It isn't his place to ask personal questions now. But she's offered a hook, and he isn't ready to let her be gone again. He could tell her anything and he'd be glad of it. ]
[ she doesn't want to. not really. she doesn't want to be that vulnerable again, doesn't want to be in a position where she sits next to the corpse of someone with the power to hurt her like that.
the particular guilt of hurting him, too, when she didn't even have the slender to blame, is one that she's used to. she has accepted it as a fundamental part of how she perceives herself. she is not a good person, not to be trusted, because she will always put her own family first, even above their trust in her. it's an old, familiar ruthlessness.
but maybe she can at least offer him the truth of that. ]
[ Okay. A promise of sorts. There's nothing to really stop him from staying out here for the long haul, but he - won't. It isn't fair to steal himself away twice in the space of a month. Not this month.
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Tell me?
[ It isn't his place to ask personal questions now. But she's offered a hook, and he isn't ready to let her be gone again. He could tell her anything and he'd be glad of it. ]
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the particular guilt of hurting him, too, when she didn't even have the slender to blame, is one that she's used to. she has accepted it as a fundamental part of how she perceives herself. she is not a good person, not to be trusted, because she will always put her own family first, even above their trust in her. it's an old, familiar ruthlessness.
but maybe she can at least offer him the truth of that. ]
When you get back, I will.
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[ Okay. A promise of sorts. There's nothing to really stop him from staying out here for the long haul, but he - won't. It isn't fair to steal himself away twice in the space of a month. Not this month.
And he wants to hear what she has to share. ]
I'll try not to take too long.