[ Without being on the easiest of terms with Wanda, or having a true sense of what anyone else is really capable of, he's been sitting on this very specific anxiety for about as long as he's been here.
Can of worms: opened. ]
How extensive is your usual reach?
[ Distinct lack of concern for how personal the question may or may not be. John started it, he can stop it if he likes. ]
[ John committed to telling him some details of necromagic when he'd let him witness the wards, so he doesn't shy away from it now. ]
I'm not particularly dimensional - but I used to have access to the River where souls go when they die, and I used to be able to sense my — partner across spans of light years.
[ Uncertain how to navigate the pause in that latter loss of contact, or the loss itself, he just... doesn't. Targets the easier thing, single-minded now. ]
Do you have any sense that your River exists here? Or you're cut off from all trace of it?
The latter. I can't enter it physically, I can't speak with the dead, I can't sense what happens to the soul when it departs, and my encompassing sense of both it and the universe I lived in is gone. I'm cut off in every possible sense of the world. All I've got is what was already a part of me.
This isn't my first time outside of my universe. It is the first time since discovering the infinity of elsewheres that existed beyond my own dimension back home that I've not been able to reach out to or draw from any of them. Not even anywhere new, unique to this place.
I've nothing inherent. All my ability is learned, and the fact that I'm still capable of utilising local energy for spellwork implies there's no real interference with my practice as a whole. There's just nothing to find.
I don't mind being afraid. I do mind the not knowing. If you notice any shifts that feel significant to you in the future, I'd be grateful if you'd share.
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Can of worms: opened. ]
How extensive is your usual reach?
[ Distinct lack of concern for how personal the question may or may not be. John started it, he can stop it if he likes. ]
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I'm not particularly dimensional - but I used to have access to the River where souls go when they die, and I used to be able to sense my — partner across spans of light years.
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Do you have any sense that your River exists here? Or you're cut off from all trace of it?
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I've nothing inherent. All my ability is learned, and the fact that I'm still capable of utilising local energy for spellwork implies there's no real interference with my practice as a whole. There's just nothing to find.
There's never nothing to find.
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[ Yeah. ]
I don't mind being afraid. I do mind the not knowing.
If you notice any shifts that feel significant to you in the future, I'd be grateful if you'd share.
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